JP ShawNaNoWriMo: uggg a week to go
Worried? You bet! I have only 1 week to go before NaNoWriMo is finished, and I just don't see myself finishing.
I know that seems like a lousy attitude to have, especially since I really aimed to give this first year doing this contest a shot. I am just having a really hard driving myself forward, wanting to complete when there is so much family crap going on right now.
Not to complain, but I literally had a mental break down the other day with DH, telling him how tired I am at dealing with all these things. The car being broken, the baby and his hospital visits, the troubles at school with our eldest son, both my parents being ill, things going on here where we live, violence happening at the elementary school, and the lack of money and stress that follows with worrying as Christmas approaches not so much as whether or not the kids will have presents, but whether or not they will eat proper.
I don't how to put all of that aside to give my characters what they need, or to even discover which direction the story should go. I feel disappointed in myself because I know I'm giving up, and that's just not like me to give up.
It's not part of my makeup to give in or up on anything I believe in. But over the past two weeks of barely writing, except for here at my blog which is the only place I feel safe enough to keep my head above water without drowning. I have done squat!
I would love to know what other writers do to keep themselves moving along. I would love ideas, and not the typical ideas of oh just write even for five minutes a day. My problem isn't writing, it's getting rid of the crap in my head long enough to put forth a reasonable effort to continue something I started.
1 week to go. We will see what happens. I made a promise to myself to finish. The only person I'm really letting down is myself. Funny how that though leaves a really bad taste in my mouth, more than if I was letting someone else down.
